It happens in every mom's life, although hopefully before her kids go off to college: The first time she leaves her kids. I had previously left Coulson for a max of 2 days, but this is the big one. I have left both boys for 6 days! And not only that, I've gone clear across the country. Casey and I are in Seattle for a big ER Doc conference. My emotions have been on a roller coaster since I started planning this trip. At first I debated bringing the boys, but I realized it would be an entirely different trip with kids. So then I got really excited about going alone with Casey. And spending time by myself while Casey is at the conference. I can exercise and read books and knit and explore the city and eat great food. Being a stay-at-home-mom with toddlers, time to myself is a rare, rare, rare experience. The thought of being cooped up by myself in a hotel room all day is glorious! And then I thought about leaving the boys and I would start to cry. But then - after a typical exhausting day chasing the boys and inventing new stories and new games and p
laying cars and legos and feeding them and wiping bums and (trying) to clean up the house - suddenly it wasn't so sad to go with Casey to Seattle.
And now we're here in Seattle. We left the boys at Casey's folks last night. It was rough (for me, the boys did fine). I cried and was pretty bummed and I had a real hard time sleeping. For weeks I've been thinking that alone time would be the ultimate (and sometimes feeling guilty that I felt that way), but once they were gone, I realized that I really do love what I do as a stay-at-home-mom. I miss their smiles and laughter and the funny things they do. They are the sunshine of my life.
But now I'm here and Casey and I are having a great time. The flights were easy and I got to read and knit. We've been able to walk around Seattle a little and visited Pike' Market. I've been able to enjoy the ease of traveling without kids. And Casey and I are looking forward to a great week together!
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